In Memory

R.I.P 

In Memory (2000-2002)

Self hatred

Kadang-kadang aku tak faham
Kenapa aku terlalu bencikan diri sendiri
Dari dulu,aku mencari peluang
Peluang untuk menyakiti diri sendiri

Aku seolah-olah berlari kearah kematian
Aku seolah-olah mencari peluang itu
Tapi kuasa Tuhan itu lebih besar
Kenapa aku perlu lupa itu
Aku ini manusia alpa
Aku tidak punya hak
Tidak punya hak untuk mengakhiri kisah hidupku
Biarpun hidup itu selamanya pahit
Hanya Tuhan yang akan tentukan
Bila ianya tamat.

Somewhere in my heart

You..
You will always got a place in my heart
and you always do, for now and forever
You always got that special place in my heart
Even I know that there must be someone else will fill in my heart too
But you always there, never go.
In your own special way.

Just Go

I can't stand people keep disappearing on me
I don't need ur sweet words I just need actions
I dun like u're being so unsure bout whatever I ask you
Just answer it YES or NO!!!
When I ask, please answer it YES or NO!!!

I hate this kind of relationship
Looks like ur charming face give no function at all
You made this so boring
Yes it's you
So could u please go away now
It's not worth my time
It's wasting ur time too

Why do I hate myself

I dunno why I'm always feel like I never belong here

I'm so out of place

I dunno how to react to love

There is blocking in my heart

Yes I am a coward

But I feel enough pain

That makes me numb to more pain

What else can I do except waiting

Waiting for my time to come

In meanwhile, I'm just observing 

Staring

Standing

Blinking

I'm a hollow ghost

Throwback

Jumpa poem yg aku tulis ni 

Just repost it here

I never waiting for you
I never plan to like you
And I'm standing still
Never put hopes on love

If you want to take me away
I need no rose
Need no diamond
Just down on your knees
Kiss the vengeance on my hand
Feel the scent of sorrow
Tear my chest apart
Grab my hollow soul
Is it fit in your heart?
If you're bleeding
Then just go away
and stop trying

LIFE

Life is not just about work, there is more about it.

Someone said that, from the character in 'A Beautiful Mind' movie. Well, I have no friend said that to me..forever alone. =_=

But, it's work that making my life goes on with the grace of God. Coz only thru works, I can make myself busy and forget myself. And when I forget, I continue my life unconsciously. So, work is life. If not, I will just keep on staring at the air and just waiting for nothing but death.