Memori

Tiada yang kekal abadi di dunia

Semua akan hilang 

Kita hanya mencipta memori

Isinya lenyap kosong jua

Kerana itu kita menghargai saat bersama

Teman dan sahabat

Untuk apa melakar memori duka

Kerna akhirnya kita tetap akan terpisah

Biarlah memori indah menjadi peneman

Tika kita semua sudah berjauhan

What I feel

How to put this.
Well, I wanna write down what I feel when it comes struck my mind, my heart.
What I really feel...

It's like when I wake up from a nightmare, I just stare on something blank
I keep memorizing the nightmares so I can confirm it.
It's real and it happened then why keep repeating it in my memories even in my unconscious?

This is what I feel when it comes to my mind, it's haunting me..
It's like when I look at myself in the mirror I saw a damaged human
Something not like human either... I dunno
I hate to see it, the reflection of myself

This is what I feel,
It's like as I'm walking across the crowd, I'm walking backwards
And every glance is killing me, deeply.
It's like their eyes looking down on me, on worthless me

This is what I feel,
As I see my own skin, I saw dirt that I can't wash away with any water
But I keep washing them, again and again with tears
Still it's there and always there

This is what I feel,
As I touched my heart
It gives no beat, like it has died so many times
Yet it still alive
And my world just getting smaller
Till I no longer belong here

Run

For all these time I thought I already moved on.

But I was wrong

I realized that all these time I was running away, not move on.

Coz, every time I got something that remind me of it, I broke down.

I totally broke down, again and again and this cycle might repeat it's system.

In Memory

R.I.P 

In Memory (2000-2002)

Self hatred

Kadang-kadang aku tak faham
Kenapa aku terlalu bencikan diri sendiri
Dari dulu,aku mencari peluang
Peluang untuk menyakiti diri sendiri

Aku seolah-olah berlari kearah kematian
Aku seolah-olah mencari peluang itu
Tapi kuasa Tuhan itu lebih besar
Kenapa aku perlu lupa itu
Aku ini manusia alpa
Aku tidak punya hak
Tidak punya hak untuk mengakhiri kisah hidupku
Biarpun hidup itu selamanya pahit
Hanya Tuhan yang akan tentukan
Bila ianya tamat.

Somewhere in my heart

You..
You will always got a place in my heart
and you always do, for now and forever
You always got that special place in my heart
Even I know that there must be someone else will fill in my heart too
But you always there, never go.
In your own special way.

Just Go

I can't stand people keep disappearing on me
I don't need ur sweet words I just need actions
I dun like u're being so unsure bout whatever I ask you
Just answer it YES or NO!!!
When I ask, please answer it YES or NO!!!

I hate this kind of relationship
Looks like ur charming face give no function at all
You made this so boring
Yes it's you
So could u please go away now
It's not worth my time
It's wasting ur time too