Thursday, August 31, 2017

She loves everyone
But sometimes she thinks their life will better without her

Coz they dont deserve someone like her
Who dunno how to love properly
Who only know to hurt and break
More like a heartbreaker

She dunno how to love
So she deserve to live alone forever
As she only know to hurt whoever around her

So...she said "I am sorry for leaving you"
The truth is she loves you
And coz of that she have to leave you
Coz you can't be near her
She is destruction
She is dealing with her own demons
And she needs no distractions

She let herself being judged by you
She rather let herself being hated by you
To make sure you are safe
Safe from herself

Monday, July 24, 2017

Aku tak pernah putus harapan akan rahmat dan kasihNya
Tapi aku putus harapan pada diri aku sendiri
Sejujurnya aku penat.
Penat dengan hidup yang aku tidak tau cara kemudinya
Orang melihat aku ketawa seolah tiada apa
Hakikatnya aku seperti bernafas di dalam lumpur
Aku sangka masa akan sembuhkan semuanya
Namun sepertinya masih belum
Apa yg aku rasa semakin sakit
Apa yg aku cuba lupa semakin jelas
Apa yg aku cuba terima semakin payah
Aku tetap dan masih juga rasa sakit
Terkadang hidup terasa begitu payah
Seperti mindaku satu neraka abadi
Semuanya meluru kembali
Menari nari di mindaku
Menyesakkan dadaku
Menggigilkan tulang temulangku
Membuat aku seperti hilang kewarasan
Membuat aku tidak percaya lagi
Pada diriku sendiri

Friday, July 21, 2017

Saturday, June 10, 2017

people say to be strong then you have to enjoy being alone.

Despites how happy I am to have company and friends, sometimes I want to be alone. Just me and myself. Me and my world, me and my fantasy, me and my melody, me and me sorrows, me and my peace. Just me. Coz within the loneliness I foundy strenght and I found myself.

Sometimes when I being among human too much, I forgot my own existence and my real self. I need to get it back so can you leave me alone for a while till I gain back myself to my soul. And when I found myself,  I'll go back to you.

Friday, March 31, 2017

Kenapa selalu kita yg beriya. Orang tak pernah kisah pun kita.

Kita korbankan masa dan tenaga utk orang. Tapi bila kita harapkan sikit je dari orang,  banyak alasan diberi.  Semuanya berkira.  Rasa macam terhina pulak.

Aku, apa yg ak harap dari manusia... Tak banyak pun.  Aku tak perlu harta korang or tenaga korang.  Aku cuma mahukan keikhlasan dalam berkawan je. Ikhlas.

Hati orang kita jaga,  hati sendiri pendam sakitnya tak terkata.  Kalau aku diam itu tanda aku marah.  Diam aku juga tanda aku kecewa dan berputus asa untuk mempertahankan perhubungan sebab mestilah aku je yg beriya. Sedangkan orang sedikit pun tak heran kewujudan ak selama ini.

Saturday, February 25, 2017

The opposite of depression is not happiness
but, vitality.

How it feels to be depressed?
It when you act less, doing less, and feeling less.
And you feel it's painful to be alive.

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

 

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