Why do I hate myself

I dunno why I'm always feel like I never belong here

I'm so out of place

I dunno how to react to love

There is blocking in my heart

Yes I am a coward

But I feel enough pain

That makes me numb to more pain

What else can I do except waiting

Waiting for my time to come

In meanwhile, I'm just observing 

Staring

Standing

Blinking

I'm a hollow ghost