Numb

I love to be like a stone
Coz stone shall stand still
I love to be numb
Coz numb make me gain no hurt
I love to be bad
Coz bad girl never get the sympathy 
I love to be stupid
Coz stupid one may get more wisdoms
I love to be scold at
Coz this may trigger my heart
I love to be hated
Coz this make me remain below
I love to chose hatred over love
Coz love always lead to hatred
I love to disappear
Coz my existence already gone
I love to be dead
Coz then my life shall begin again